How did I get to be SOOOOOO disorganized??

I used to be a very organized person. In fact so much so that when me and 6 family members took a trip to NYC 7 years ago I earned the nickname "Captain Preparedness." So how is it that I have ended up where I am today - completely and totally disorganized??

Since having Chase I have found that in order for me to do the things I need to do and not forget about them until it's too late I have to write it down. At any given moment I have at least three to-do lists going - one for work, one for housework, and one for other personal/non-work reminders. Even the most simple of to-dos that should be easy to remember (like cleaning Chase's ears out or cutting his finger nails) has to be written down or I will completely and totally forget.

Not only am I not able to keep straight from hour to hour / day to day all of the things that I need to, I also cannot keep track of where anything is anymore. Earlier this week I spent half the night looking for the Brad Paisley CD that I bought over a year ago and have only listened to a handful of times because I couldn't remember where I put it. I could see in my mind all of the places that it could have been, but of course it was in none of those places. Finally, it occur ed to me to check my desk at work (where I keep a lot of CDs - have to have music while I work) and finally was able to put my hands on the missing CD.

Last night I spent over an hour looking for a new shade of fingernail polish (a very pretty purple) that I bought a few weeks back but hadn't yet had time to use. I very vividly remember putting it on the counter in my bathroom, but it has disappeared and is no where to be found. It bugs me WAYYY more than it should to know what it is missing. If only I could remember where I put it after taking it into the bathroom. . .

Even my DVR has become a disorganized mess. At any given time I have over 70 hours of unwatched shows - some from as far back as June of last year (season finale of Entourage, I am talking about you).

I just wish that I could feel like I had a little bit of a better handle on my life. I like to be in control, and right now I feel like my life is controlling me instead of me controlling my life. My mom says it will get easier or I will just learn to live with it. Please, oh please, let it get easier, because I just don't know that I can live like this for much longer!!